Judicial Watch: Far Right Extremism at its Worst

Several months ago, I received a survey from an organization called Judicial Watch that concerned the use of the Death Penalty, which I am strongly in favor of; therefore, I filled out the survey and sent it back without thinking twice about it, nor did Judicial Watch even enter my mind once after. So yesterday, imagine my ire when I get another survey from Judicial Watch – this time with so much vitriol against former president Barack Obama – as well as his Administration, not to mention Hillary Clinton (and I’m no fan of hers) – that I sent the following letter from my iphone (I don’t normally use my phone for emails because it often too easy to ‘send’ the message without it being finished):

To whom it may concern,

I just received your survey today and was dismayed to learn that your organization has reduced itself to despicable name calling and playing the White Mans blame game (former President Obama’s administration being referred to as a ‘gang’). It is apparent that Judicial Watch is a right wing, ultra conservative organization and as a woman of color living in a country that suffers from institutional racism, I want no part of any research, polls, surveys or anything else from your organization so do not send me any more materials and remove me from your mailing list. I’m not a Trump zealot like the rest of you sheeple and proud of it; he’s not a god just a man with more money (and less sense) than most. I tore your survey to pieces and tossed it into the garbage where it belongs.

Ordinarily, I would have sent an email more along the lines of this:

To whom it may concern,

As a woman of color making do in Amerikkka, I do not appreciate your nasty name baiting of former President Obama and his Administration (lawless gang) nor your obvious veneration of President Trump and his Administration. It is evident that you people are damn glad to have the ‘nigger’ out of the White House and a man of your own skin hue back in there at last! I’m glad you’re happy about that because I am not, and if I get enough money to emigrate to another, more hospitable land than the US I will do so, because Whites here are really showing their ‘true colors’ as far as race relations go, and I’m beyond sick and tired of the racist bullshit that we non-Whites (especially Blacks and Hispanics) must face daily. Okay, you got your White bigot elected. Great. Stop your hating on Obama and move on. Oh wait, you can’t do that because Obama was president for 8 years and Trump will only be in there 4 years – if he even lives that long. What I really want to say is, go fuck yourselves…dipshits!

I decided to do further research on Judicial Watch and of course I learn that, like Fox News, Bill O’Reilly, Retardicans, and other Right-leaning types, the organization is totally Conservative and even reports fake news, utilizing emotion-laden words in order to inflame their narrow-minded fans. I participated in a poll that asked visitors to the website how they would rate Judicial Watch, and I gave it an ‘extreme right’ rating. Here are some links to ‘news’ as reported by Judicial Watch –

I don’t think I need to worry about receiving any more bullshit from this so-called ‘organization’. As far as I am concerned, Judicial Watch, its organizers and members can all kiss my non-flat, non-White ass and go rot in an eternal honky hellhole with all their fellow Republitards.

Slavery’s Legacy: Black Victimology

Black Americans do nothing but complain. They complain about White cops killing unarmed Blacks, the White Man and his racist agenda (i.e. – the White Establishment), Donald Trump and his oddly devoted, fanatical followers, and how European standards of beauty are forced upon us all here in the US. They complain that they can’t get ahead because of their color, they can’t get a good job – or any job at all – because of their race, and they blame the White race for every little bad thing that happens to them, even the crack cocaine epidemic, Black men going to prison for murder and drug dealing at higher rates than Whites, and how the White Elites of Hollywood ignore Black films and filmmakers as well as other talent when nominating producers, directors, actors, and so on for awards. Black people have been whining ever since I can remember, and that was way back in the 70s when I was just a little girl and didn’t understand anything about racism, discrimination, prejudice, and bigotry (though I was told about it all the time by my grandmother, mother, and other relatives).

Black Americans are very anti-intellectual (‘redneck’ and low-income Whites are the same, and I would not be surprised if Hispanics are  as well). When I was in school, Black kids picked on the students – all of them White (5th grade) except for one Black boy in the 6th grade – in the Gifted & Talented (GT) program, and made fun of the students who achieved Honor Roll status. They pinned all their misplaced glory on their athletes and musically inclined peers, and poked fun of us who preferred to stick our noses in a book. Of my entire family, there is one person with a Masters, and he has self-esteem issues, plays the Race Card more than anyone else in our clan, and can’t get a job (no doubt because he’s high and mighty, thinking he’s going to get some type of managerial position with little to zero experience). There is one other person with a 2 year degree, one with a 1 year diploma as well as various certifications (me), while the rest have only a high school diploma or GED or nothing.

Sounds like Jews as well. No wonder Whites hate us!

Black Americans cry ‘institutional racism‘ whenever anyone cites the poor academic performance of Black students, but the truth of the matter is, Blacks from non-American backgrounds (Africa, the Caribbean) almost always outperform American Blacks – and the sadder reality is that Whites from lower socio-economic backgrounds have SAT scores around the same levels as Blacks from middle and upper-income backgrounds. Can Blacks keep blaming White people for this? I don’t believe so, I know from my own awareness of this problem that many Black Americans just want to get by, to find a job, keep it, and become dependent on that weekly or bi-weekly paycheck. I know from working with them that they are simply content with that, harboring little if any aspirations to ascend into a supervisory or managerial position. My own family have never been supportive as far as a higher ed is concerned, which is probably why so many of my contemporaries within the clan have either not bothered with going to college, or dropped out within a year or two of studies. (I had to do so for financial reasons.)

Black Americans laugh and call you an ‘Oreo’, ‘Junior Mint’, or tell you that you’re ‘acting White’ or even that you ‘think you are White’ if you don’t speak Ebonics, act ignorant, or behave like a thug. If you are light-skinned, as I am, they tease you even more so – apparently out of jealousy and envy. I can’t recall how many times I was taunted by the Black kids while growing up, and I know that this bullying has had a lasting effect on me – to this day, I have no close Black friends, I rarely date Black guys, and I have a meanness in me towards Black Americans that I cannot rid myself of even though I know it’s wrong to be that way towards my own people. I would much rather be in an interracial group than one that is exclusively Black because eventually, one of the Blacks will make some damn remark about my light complexion, my hazel eyes, or the way I talk – which is decidedly not Black.

Black Americans need to learn how to get along within their own communities and stop the stupid in-fighting. Rather than down each other, we need to uplift our fellow Blacks whether their skin is pale or tan or brown or dark chocolate, no matter what our hair texture is, or how we speak. So what if one of us ‘sounds White’? That’s ignorant – do White people say such disparaging comments about Whites who ‘sound Black’ or whose skin tone is ‘light’ or ‘dark’ or whatever? Because not all Whites are the same shade despite what you may think. Italians, Greeks and other Mediterraneans tend to have dark (olive) skins, whilst those of Irish, British, and Nordic descent are typically paler (ivory). People from India run the gamut from very light skin to extremely dark. So what if your coworker has wavy hair? Are you going to spend your time and waste your emotions detesting her/him because of something that s/he cannot help? Come together as a people and stop all the useless hating. Grow up, damn it! Get educated.

Black Women: Unwanted, Unloved?

Yes, I have written about this before but it was in a different context than today’s post. There’s a blogger who calls himself Abagond, he’s always posting his opinions on interracial relations and relationships here in the US, and one of his favorite topics is Black women and whether or not White or other non-Black men see them as attractive, why Black men don’t want Black women, and whether or not Black women are viewed as ‘ugly’ by men. From these posts, it would seem that Abagond is the one who’s got issues with Black women, that he’s got more race hate than your typical White Supremacist/Separatist, and finally, that he’s got some type of yearning for White women because he loves to write about them as well – and they are usually blonde, Nordic types. Not sure if a White chick turned down his offer of a date or what, but this guy certainly has a weird obsession with racial matters – when he isn’t posting song lyrics and video links for the musical artists he admires, that is.

In one post on why ‘so few White men marry Black women’, Abagond even gives one reason as:

Lack of good looks in black women: Most white men think black women are not all that good looking when compared to white women. That comes across in their phrase “good-looking for a black girl”. And you see it in their lists of beautiful women on the Internet: they have few if any black women and those they do have tend to be light-skinned. An amazing-looking black woman can walk right by a white man without him batting an eye.

Abagond really has a lot of issues with Black women, not to mention people in general other than Black guys, whom he tends to defend more often than not (even though many Black men really are lazy, criminal-minded, drug dealing scumbags or they wouldn’t get into the situations they do; i.e. in prison or in the grave at a young age). I have been hit on by far more White men than Blacks, but that may be due to my light complexion, and I have also been called attractive by Hispanics and Asians, particularly guys from India, and Middle Eastern men are always sending me marriage proposals on Facebook. I know skin tone has a lot to do with things, but that’s not always true.

So Internet posts of Black women that White men find attractive is proof that White men only find light-skinned Black women comely? That is such bullshit and to post it without at least some type of poll to back it up is ignorant. I always maintain that my posts are my own opinions, and when they are partly based on fact, I always provide links to back up my statements. Not so Abagond, not all the time – and when he does provide statistics, they are usually his own – because I have Googled plenty of his alleged statistics and either cannot find them, or find different numbers than what he posted.

Below are his many links, not exclusive, on ‘ugly’ Black women and how we are so unwanted (instead of focusing on why many Black men run after White women like the dumb dogs they are):

It’s Funny To Me How Much They Love Trump

I’m sitting here at my laptop drinking coffee and thinking how totally stupid some people are over Trump, how earnestly and vociferously they will defend that man – no matter that they are struggling poor asses, unable to get ahead, living paycheck to paycheck, whilst Trump and his family live better than royalty, without a care in the world, surely without a thought towards the ‘little man’ who voted him into the White House.

Not only are these people seriously deluded, they are typical of the ‘sheeple’ – followers rather than leaders (which they will never, ever be of course). You cannot reason with them because the ignorant will argue with you until they are blue in the face to prove their point(s), which usually do not make much sense because an uneducated or uninformed person is making them. I can only laugh at these simpletons and shake my head, because they’re in for a very rude awakening – in fact, some of them probably already regret voting for Agent Orange, as Trump is now being called.

I think I mentioned in a previous post how one dumb White bitch on Facebook waxed rhapsodic on how much she ‘loved and adored’ Trump – presumably because he’s a rich White man running the country rather than a mixed race one, and they have got to have a White person in charge, especially a White man – after all folks, this is Amerikkka! I didn’t bother reading the rest of the stupid cunt’s post, I simply ‘unfriended’ her and left it at that. Amateur political pundits I have no time for.

What these Trump Worshipers don’t seem to realize is that he’s a fucking man just like Obama is, only with a skin color they like much better and hair that isn’t kinky – what hair is left, that is. How anyone can idolize this bigot unless they share his views is beyond me, but there are dummkopfs and there are arseholes. They Tweet and they post and they bitch and they whine and they complain and they blog – and I can’t tell you which are worse, the Trumpanzees or the Bleeding Hearts. They are equally crybabies, though lately the Leftists have been doing most of the weeping due to their Lady Love having lost the election.

I thank the Goddess that I am in control of my mind enough that I don’t idolize people. None of them are worth my time that’s for damn sure, and I would never bow down to some misogynist prick like Donald Trump whose own grandparents were immigrants, legal though they were – and with German blood on his father’s side, who’s to say that those people weren’t fans of Adolf Hitler? Many German Americans were, as you will recall (of you even know about such things), members of the German American Bund which was a Nazi organization for Americans with Teutonic ancestry. It’s shocking how crazy people are for this man, a fellow human being who is not a god…but oh well. Sheeple. They are ten kinds of stupid and then some.

Trump’s popularity can be compared with Hitler’s because that is exactly how Trump’s Retardican fans behave – just the way Adi’s foaming-at-the-mouth Nazi fanatics did back in the late 20s through late 30s. By the 1940s, most of Hitler’s former crazed followers had lost hope in their White Knight. This is how it shall be with Trump in a few short years – hell, maybe in a couple of months! I will laugh my ass off when that day comes for those sheeple I know who worship at the Altar of Trump.

Stephen King Versus Dean Koontz

I have just added Finders Keepers to my SK collection, and so far it’s a fantastic read. I found it in a local Ollie’s for only $3.99, an excellent price for a hardcover book by the Master of Horror (or so some call him), and while there were some Dean Koontz novels available (those Odd books, which I cannot get into), I declined to purchase them. I already have The City anyway – a damn good book, by the way. I highly recommend it to any horror fan.

Reading Finders Keepers, I began to list – in my mind – the differences between King and Koontz as Finders Keepers. I don’t think either writer has much faith in our government – who the hell does? – and it sometimes comes out in their published works. well as the similarities. Both have written novels and/or stories about the dark side of human nature, but Koontz is a genius with that. King is more of the supernatural horror writer. Both are White men, both seem to be highly intelligent – though I believe Koontz may have the higher IQ – and both are still married to their wives, a rarity in this age of multiple trips to the altar and endless divorces. They also like to take swings at the Establishment, usually the Tea Bag Partiers as King referred to them in Finders Keepers.

Stephen King truly is a Master, but then so is Dean Koontz. They simply have different writing styles and while King delves into that supernatural stuff, Koontz sticks with human evil at its absolute worst and believe me, he has written about some pretty damn dark individuals. Many of them tend to be on the greedy side because, let’s be totally honest here, most rich people are greedy and also are assholes and I know this because I’ve been around affluent people. They are without a doubt some of the most arrogant, self-centered, slimiest jerks on the planet. They make me long for 2 things – a cabin way up in the Rockies or the Sierra Nevadas with the nearest neighbor 10 miles away, and a large implement to bitch-slap their whiny asses.


There are some novels by both authors that are a bit long-winded in certain parts. King’s Bag of Bones comes to mind, as well as Rose Madder and It, that shitty novel I never could finish. Koontz’s Cold Fire is a prime example of another novel that drags in the middle, along with Dark Rivers of The Heart and that scene in Intensity where Chyna is rescuing the girl from inside the killer’s home. However, with King there are more novels that tend to be a ‘hit’ or a ‘miss’, while I don’t have that problem with any of the novels in my Koontz collection. One King novel I won’t be reading again for some time is The Shining, a definite miss in my opinion. His TV mini series is as well but that’s a topic for a future post.

The unfortunate truth about Dean Koontz is the older he’s become, the more searching his novels have become. When before he had little of anything to write about that great Sky God, nowadays he has plenty – his novels The Taking and Innocence come to mind instantly. I guess people can get that way when they are older and feel that they’re closer to death, but I don’t see any reason to believe in something that’s never been proven, and 7 relatives of mine have passed since 2010, one of them just the other evening. All these deaths are certainly not making me run to the nearest church. Then there are those dog books and the obsession with golden retrievers…c’mon, Koontz! What the fuck…?!?

At least Stephen King hasn’t strayed from his wicked horror ways. Not yet anyway. His books have only gotten better in many ways and I hope he keeps churning them out until ‘whatever’ happens.

Reincarnation Again

Reincarnation is still on my mind for some reason or other.

According to a Reader’s Digest online article

Today 24 percent of Americans—or more than 75 million people—across all religions believe in reincarnation, according to a Pew Forum on Religion & Public Life poll; a separate survey reports that roughly one in ten people can recall his or her own past life.

Most Christians do not believe in it, though there are some that do – Islam also is not a religion that believes in reincarnation; it is Asian religions such as Hinduism, Jainism, Sikhism and Buddhism that hold a belief in reincarnation. These are all Indian religions that also hold the belief in Karma, which is a cause and effect system wherein what one does in this life will positively or even negatively affect the next. (That means, for the ignorant out there, that Karma is not something that gets back at a person for doing something bad to another because Karma is an Asian religious concept, not Pagan or Wiccan or Jewish or whatever.)

Why am I drawn like a moth to a flame by stories, photos, and films about Nazi Germany? My main reason for ever visiting Europe in the first place was to go to Germany – not London, not Paris, not Rome or even the Alps of Switzerland. I never wanted to learn French or Spanish, I concentrated on German and to this day, while I cannot speak it, I can understand some of the written language. A lot of people say that it’s a ‘guttural’ tongue but I don’t share that opinion – German is no more ‘guttural’ than English, which is not a pretty spoken language itself. (A recent poll revealed that the top 3 sexy languages, according to the American women surveyed, are German, Swedish, and Dutch – Teutonic tongues that are usually not in the top 5 of ‘sexy’ spoken languages.)

Why does hearing true tales about the Old West intrigue me? When I still read (gag!) romance novels, I preferred those that were set in the Old West even though I’ve never been a huge fan of Western films (probably because so many of them starred that racist extraordinaire, John Wayne). I am as drawn to the Western US, though I have yet to even set foot in a Western state, as I am to Germany and I feel that to live out West is my destiny. If I could live anywhere in the world, I would have two homes: one in Germany (Bavaria, more likely) and the other in a Western state such as Nevada.

How come the pull is there? It is very strong, like an enormous magnet out there in the universe just luring me in. I cannot explain it any more than I can explain why strange things happen in my house. Is my fascination with the Old West the reason for my firm belief in the Death Penalty and that public executions should be brought back? DNA testing proves I have zero Native American blood, yet I have an empathy for their plight and near-eradication as much as I do for the Jews that suffered under the yoke of Nazism in Germany and other parts of Europe (not those Zionist zealots of Israel though). Perhaps my passion for that era is the reason for my anti-Aryan stance, feeling a sort of dislike for blue-eyed blonds, and extreme loathing for Hitler and his henchmen – though there were some good things that came about s a result of the Nazis being in power, before they fucked up everything.

I had a classmate once whose mother was in love with Greece, even though she had no Greek blood. She felt a strong desire to see that land, and I hope she finally did.

Have I Been Reincarnated?

Re·in·car·na·tion: rēənkärˈnāSH(ə)n/


  1. the rebirth of a soul in a new body.

    synonyms: rebirth, transmigration of the soul, metempsychosisMore

    • a person or animal in whom a particular soul is believed to have been reborn.

      plural noun: reincarnations

      “he is said to be a reincarnation of the Hindu god Vishnu”

    • a new version of something from the past.

Like ghosts, UFOs, demons, Big Foots, Yetis, paranormal activity, electronic voice phenomena, angels, and extra sensory perception, I definitely do not believe that we are reincarnated. I don’t believe in near death experiences either – and while I may have blogged about a ‘demon’ being in my house in an earlier post, I really don’t believe that there is one here – my fiance smokes a lot of weed and well,..there is such a phenomenon as a cannabis hallucination – the house is simply very old and creaks a great deal. What about the door knob and the flying candles? That’s a tale for another day.

How about the faces in the mirror that I saw transposed over my own when I burned a candle in a dark room trying to ‘see’ winning lottery numbers and instead, saw something rather bizarre? Can I really explain that man’s face with the drooping, cowboy-like mustache, or that woman with the dark, upswept hair that looked like something from the late 1890s to early 1910s. Can I explain it? Maybe it was just a trick of the candlelight. Yet there are other things that I cannot wholly explain, one being my intense fascination for nearly anything that has to do with World War Two – and Germany.

Can I account for my strange obsession with Nazi Germany, my yearning to visit concentration camps, my odd feelings that perhaps I was a Jewish woman during that horrid time, maybe even one who was married to an Aryan or at least in love with one? While I cannot speak a word of Yiddish and German continues to elude me – somewhat – I am still drawn to the country, to that time, and to the types of people living under Hitler’s Terror Regime – Jews, Gypsies, Socialists, and Aryans that were totally against that totalitarian state and even resisted it. I was a child when the mysterious yet compelling need to visit Germany first manifested and the country still has a special magnetism for me to this day, and I cannot describe to you why or how or any of it.

I was in the sixth grade and during that school year we studied Western Europe in social studies. I was enthralled with ancient Greece but no other moment in European history caught my attention the way that of Germany and World War Two did. When I first saw the photo of a bombed out Berlin, the only structure recognizable being the ruins of the Kaiser Wilhelm Memorial Church, I felt an oddness within that cannot today be described. I knew at that time I would see the actual ruins someday, and that vision became a reality in October 2001. I also knew, upon gazing at a photo of Mad King Ludwig’s fantasy castle Neuschwanstein, that I would see it as well – and I did, in 1999 and in 2010.

Am I the reincarnation of a cowboy with a droopy mustache and a woman who wore her dark hair in a bun? Who can tell? Who really knows for certain? I don’t believe it myself, but it’s weird to have such a strong feeling for a country the way I do for Germany. Was the woman with the dark bun a Jewish lady from that time? I don’t know. Some women did wear their tresses brushed back into a bun during those years – other than the hairstyle, I couldn’t see much of her features as they were sort of transposed over my own. But I have had a sort of empathy for suffering people in my past, and I’m always reading books about the personal experiences of those that managed to survive World War Two, whether Jewish or not – though I do prefer the memoirs penned by Jewish women. Does this mean I am the reincarnation of a cowboy and a woman who lived during Nazi Germany? I don’t know but I wish that I could find out.